Quick journal guys;
probably my shortest one ever, lulz.

I'm going to visit Osha for the weekend, and I wont be back until Tuesday. I may pop online for a little while in between now and then, but don't count on it.

love you all, lots.
See you when I get home.
~Iris♥


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EDIT: wow, turn of events here.
Turns out that as soon as my mom's boyfriend's kid realized that we'd all be going, he suddenly decided that he didn't really want to go on the trip that much, and that he'd rather spend the weekend with his friend instead... so since John isn't going, only my om and her boyfriend are going again...
soooooooooooooooooo, yeah, I'm stuck here an my momma is going to leave in the morning instead.
*shrugs* oh well I guess. Probably better for us in the end, financially, anyways.
I'm still a lil bummed though. =/


Howdey my lovelies, sorry I haven't kept you updated for the last few weeks.

Still missing *Osha-Briefs, but... I'm glad things seem to be going well with her. She's got good roomies, including a friend of ours whom we'd met here on DA a long time ago; ~qtsushigirl
I'm glad, but a little bit jealous, I will admit. ^_^;

Homelife has continued to have it's ups and downs. Financially, emotionally, spiritually...
I'll spare you the details, but essentially all of it's got me feeling a bit ragged around the edges.

I couldn't quite place the emotion I've been feeling lately, but then, today, I realized what it is; I've been feeling very jaded.

Not depressed; just tired and worn down. My energy level's been really low, and my creativity's been running on empty.

hmm... I'm wondering if it's cause I'm not getting enough 'me time'. Not that I don't love my friends and family, but it's nice to get away from everyone for a little while...
I think I might just want to kick back alone for a few hrs. watch a movie. read a book.

*shrugs* I'm a Capricorn. It's who I am. I'm stubbern, independant, and sort of a recluse. I don't really like to go out to often, unless I am the one who came up with the idea, or I feel like it... and I feel like I've been dragged out of the house way too much lately. I like living in my cave.

However, I'm sure you're wondering about the title of this journal.

Yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup, looks like I'm headed off on a roadtrip. Today. In like... 3 hours.
It was sort of sprung on me really; My mom's boyfriend bought a motercycle up in Seattle, and he's going up there to pick it up todays. But he needed somone to drive the Van back. So him and my mom were going to go together as a date.
Weeeeeeeeeeell, then my mom's boyfriend's son really wanted to go. He's a whiny little brat of a thing... so he always gets his way. *eyerolls* my mom was a little frustrated/dissapointed, because when my sister asked if she could go, my mom had initially said no... but now that John's comming, she didn't see any reason why the rest of us couldn't go; so it's become a 'duel family roadtrip' of sorts.

Now, I know that I JUST said that I dont' like to go out too often; but to me a vacation is different, and ontop of that my mom gave me the option to go. I could stay here if I wanted, but.... well Seattle is pretty awsome. *grins*
Plus it will be nice to do something together as a family. We haven't really done anything like that for a long time cause of money being so tight.

Erm... and about that, we're either staying in a motel, or in the van itself. I wouldn't mind sleeping in a van... cause we DON'T need to be blowing money on things we don't need. *shakes head*
I'll probably be promoting that we sleep int he Van.

At any rate, I'll probably be back in a day or two; leave today, drive up there, get the bike, crash for the night, chill and go hang around Seattle some, see some sites, go window shopping, and then get back on the road again an get back sometime tomarrow night. That or spend the whole day tomarrow in Seattle, crash again, and take off the next day. *nods*

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo, yeah.
I'll catch you guys in a few days.

Love you all,
~Iris♥


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Hello all...
I've kept rather quiet about it, and haven't mentioned it to but a small handful of people... but today is the day that I've been dreading for the past six year.

Today is the day that my very best friend in the world leaves me.

My dear *Osha-Briefs left sometime this morning for collage. Her first class is on Monday.

I've tried to be optimistic about it. Not let is phase me too much. She'll only be three hours away... I'll get to talk to her a lot more often on MSN because she'll finally actually have the Internet... and she'll visit on certain weekends...

But last night, when we said our final goodbyes and she left, I just didn't wanna let her go, and when I did, as soon as she was out of sight, I began balling for who knows how long.

I know it's not permanent, and I know it's not 'goodbye', in the slightest. I know that worse could happen, and it's good for her to finally be moving on and getting a higher education for herself...

But that doesn't mean that it doesn’t hurt, and that doesn't mean that I shouldn't cry. It doesn't mean that it will make things any easier...

I'm going to try hard not to get depressed though. It's been a long time coming, and I knew she was leaving for months now... we've spent as much time together as possible, and I've cherished every moment.

I know that I need to get a move on with things myself, and get out of this funk I'm in; I need to work on my commissions, get a steady-paying job, and learn to drive.

Thankfully things are looking up, in those regards.
I applied at a Chinese restaurant down the street, and they said they’d get back to me in May. I don't really want a waitresses job, especially since usually they're below minimum, but you get to keep the tips... but I'll to what I gotta. However, even if that falls through, I got a back up, and I'm more excited about the backup, because I have the job, guaranteed.

I'll be working as a desk receptionist for a drug-testing clinic.

The only reason why I'm not already working there is because the place doesn't exist quite yet.
What do I mean?

Well, my mom used to work two jobs; full time at St. Al's as a phlebotomist (that's the person who draws patient's blood, incase you don't know), and part time at a little drug-testing clinic.
While that clinic was going fine for a long time, the company crumbled and fell apart because the owner got greedy; she stopped paying her bills and stopped paying her workers, and just started spending all the money the company made on herself.

Since that clinic was shut down, there is only one other drug-testing clinic within a reasonable distance, and everyone who has to be tested gets sent there. So a friend of my mothers, my mom, and a few of the other people who worked there are working at getting another clinic started. Once they get this thing up and running, I'm guaranteed that spot as a receptionist.

If my mom has a second job again money wont be so tight anymore. And if I have a job again I'll have money for our family to fall back on, and college money saved up once more; I've virtually depleted my savings by trying to keep our little family afloat... > ~ <

*sigh* If I spend this next year saving up everything... I hope that next year I can finally get off to school. I've decided I will go to the same school that Osha is going to. It may not be the art school that I dreamed of going to all my life... but it has a recognized arts program. ..."Silver's good enough for me... ♪"
I will be leaving next summer, because only the summer and fall tracks offer the arts programs.


In other news,
I have a 'room mate' now. My friend ~ClearExpressions. She moved in with me a few weeks ago when her parents told her to get a second job or move out. She was working to find one, but her allotted time ran out. So now she's livin' here and helping out by paying $200 a month for rent.

Things have been very interesting with her around, to say the least.
We're very different personality types; I'm quiet and prefer to keep to myself, she's a loud party girl. I don't mind though, so long as I get my space and we haven't had a single fight yet, so as far as I know things are good. O. o

Also, (it's been ongoing for a while now), but I've 'recently' started dating =rezzek. ^_^
Yes, it is a long-distance relationship (and my first one, at that), as he lives in the UK and I live here in the USA, but that doesn't phase me any. For now, just being able to talk to him and get to know him better is more then enough. Personally I think relationships should be built slowly as just 'friends' first anyhow. U . U

Lastly, I've decided that some time this next year, before I head off to school, I AM going to visit =war-armor or have her come and visit me here.
I WILL MAKE IT SO!!!
I lubba yew so much hon. I wantsa meet yew in person!!! C:


Well,
All in all, though this journal was an update for sorts...
What I really felt like I needed to say was; I do hope the best for you my friend. I hope you know that I love and care about you very much, and you will be missed every moment of every day. I hope that you can pass all of your classes without me there ridding you to get her homework done *snirks*, but most of all, I hope you know that you are the most precious person in the world to me; I love you like a sister, and I only wish you good luck in all things.
Lots of hugs and kisses, keep safe, keep drawing, keep dreaming.

Your best friend forever,

~*Iris-Uriko-Briefs





.....I'm going to miss her terribly.